I know I've said it before but I LOVE Pandora. It's so great to have a steady mix of awesome music playing as a soundtrack to my days and nights here at home. There is a song by Warren Barfield (yes, I had to look it up the artist) that truly gets me every time ... tonight being no exception.
As I was doing the dishes and preparing for tomorrow and thinking about what I wanted to write about our Valentine's Day and my good husband, this song came on and I was truly overwhelmed by the goodness of God in my life. The line that gets me in this song is, "And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door". What a PICTURE that is... may God send angels to guard the door ... When I think of angels, I don't think of cute little cherubs, I think of angels as they are described in the Bible: big, powerful, fear inducing, fall on your face, flaming beings. I think about Adam and Eve and leaving Eden and an angel with a flaming sword guarding the entrance for their own good. Marriage is so important.
And, so is God's grace and goodness. As is seeking him in the days of your youth with your whole heart and choosing the right person to spend the rest of your life with. Choose wisely.
And ... this is where I am overwhelmed tonight.
Moved to tears.
This good husband of mine ...
When the only thing I deserved was death. God reached down and saved me.
Changed my life and led me on this unbelievable path. I am so blessed, so lucky, so very grateful.
I always smile thinking back to the days of waitressing at Chevy's in Lake Tahoe. Trying to serve the Lord the best I could with what little knowledge I had. Something of an enigma in such a worldly place, this girl with such a worldly background - although most of the people I worked with probably had no idea - living a life so set apart from what was was the norm there.
A conversation sticks out in my mind with one of the guys I worked with. He was a cute, but very lost, snowboarder ... trying to figure this (me) out. I'm sure he was trying to crack the code and figure out a weak spot ... Why did I not date? Why did I not party? I remember telling him about the man I would marry. (MARRIAGE??? The furthest thing from his mind I'm sure - I mean here we were in our early 20's!!). I clearly remember telling him with total confidence that my husband would be tall, play the guitar, and most importantly, that he would love Jesus even more than me.
The last part is where he about choked... "MORE THAN YOU??!!! What are you looking for, a PRIEST??!!" (Keep in mind that I'm pretty sure that I was one of the very Christians he knew...) I just smiled and told him it would happen.
And ...
Could God have answered my prayers in this cute husband of mine any more perfectly?
I think every year in my Valentine's Day card to Tim I close with just about the same phrase, "Lucky Me." I really, really mean it.
Love is Not a Fight by Warren Barfield
Love is not a place
To come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
Then commit to never leave
So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees
Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
To some, love is a word
That they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/w/warren_barfield/love_is_not_a_fight.html ]
Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
Love will come to save us
If we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us
But demand we give our all
Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for
I will fight for you
Would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for
3 comments:
This is a powerful and touching post. The visual of the angels at the door is like - whoa! I am going to find this song now. Thank you for sharing your story and for giving inspiration and resources to me in my quest to help women. Love you beauty.
Thanks for the encouragement Angele. I think the song isn't a new one, I think I read they used it in the Fireproof movie. It is SO, SO good. Could be the pregnancy hormones, but it moves me to tears every time. Powerful. Love you.
I definitely don't think it's hormones, I think it's anointed and timely for many. Sharing the song and the blog.
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